I am learning more and more everyday from highly experienced Dominas. I am learning about more of the sadistic pleasures that make a MaleDom smile. The more discipline I receive, the more I can take and the more I want to take.
I desire to be flogged teasingly until it goes from light to heavy. I want to see the cherry red look of My ass after a nice spanking. It has been so long since I had a red bottom and I miss it truly. I know the pleasures of being sensually disciplined and having your curiosities explored.
I desire a good OTK from a pair of big strong hands that know “where, how hard, and how much more”. Yes, I’m bratty and maybe a bit snotty/snobby but, I like to have fun. I like to know that I can be a spoiled brat and get what I want sometimes. Is that bad if all I want is a brat’s attention, discipline, & love?
Sometimes it hard to explain but, I guess it can be described as a feeling of longing to come close to your 1st and best bdsm experience. Sometimes I want to ask myself where did this longing come from, when will it leave again, why does it keep coming back…..
I think the dirtiest and kinkiest thoughts until I wonder or think that I am wrong or twisted. It is through my longing that I contemplate on whether I should leave this lifestyle for a strictly vanilla one. Everyone has to do what makes them happy.
Guess I will continue this later….